I guess that's what I'm saying, is I don't think Rachel ever sought power. I think the resentment Rachel had for Jake went a little beyond her resenting him giving her orders--I think she resented him for knowing her deeply enough to realize she'd do anything he told her to do because, though ruthless and chaotic, if her rage had no purpose then it would explode inside of her. Jake was Rachel's violence dealer, if that makes sense. She could only get her fix through him. He was the floodgate, and she resented that that was the deal they'd come to.
I'm kind of talking out of my ass, though. My reading of 48 is that the entire damn book took place inside of Rachel's head. There's really nothing in the book itself, save some dialogue with Cassie, that takes place in the "real world" and as far as I remember, no one ever mentions it in another book. I could be wrong about that, but even if I am tbh I think I'd just ignore it. I think 48 was Rachel's fever-dream subconscious way of dealing with her own rage and violence in contexts she was comfortable with. Crayak represented the kind of unregulated, limitless expression of violence she thought she wanted, while David was like her lingering humanity and guilt. David was tying her to staying human and not becoming some warrior-monster. Which makes the choice of whether to kill him in the end all the more tragic in a way.
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Date: 2011-05-09 04:59 am (UTC)I'm kind of talking out of my ass, though. My reading of 48 is that the entire damn book took place inside of Rachel's head. There's really nothing in the book itself, save some dialogue with Cassie, that takes place in the "real world" and as far as I remember, no one ever mentions it in another book. I could be wrong about that, but even if I am tbh I think I'd just ignore it. I think 48 was Rachel's fever-dream subconscious way of dealing with her own rage and violence in contexts she was comfortable with. Crayak represented the kind of unregulated, limitless expression of violence she thought she wanted, while David was like her lingering humanity and guilt. David was tying her to staying human and not becoming some warrior-monster. Which makes the choice of whether to kill him in the end all the more tragic in a way.
idk, I haven't read it in a while though