i love the entire opening scene so much, the way tobias is so awkward and uncomfortable, and rachel wants to be having fun but is mostly just kind of pissed off. and for the record, i use marco's "hah. hah. and also, a bonus hah" line all the time.
"You're saying you'd rather be sitting up in your tree, watching owls eat nocturnal rodents, than be with me?" she asked. Her tone was somewhere between challenging and coy. Dangerous in either direction. they're so tragically fucked up ;_; i actually think their relationship is one of the most consistently written things in the series (unlike rachel's characterization ahem ahem). they always care deeply about each other, tobias is always afraid to give in too far to something he loves, rachel always wants him to be happy but refuses to see that he is, in fact, happier this way because she can't deal with that being true. they both on the one hand want to make the other happy more than almost anything, and on the other hand know on some level they can't give the other what they want.
We'd been through this before. I didn't know how to answer. And I didn't know why she was pushing it. another example of the above. they're stuck.
Why was Rachel ignoring reality? She knew as well as anyone that I'd be out of the fight if I stayed more than two hours in human form. this sheds some light, for me, on their whole conflict about whether or not tobias should go human. i think while rachel wouldn't admit this to herself, the fact that he'd be out of the fight is part of the appeal for her of tobias going human. like she says later (in a bit of dialogue i really love):
She paused to consider her next words. She was embarrassed by what she was about to say. Fighting to get past her embarrassment. "But you've got to realize that there's more. I'm not just a warrior," she said, her blue eyes glittering so close to mine. "I'm a girl. I'm trying not to let myself be dragged off the cliff, away from all normalcy, into this insane life we live. I don't like what it does to me, Tobias, and I need to be a girl again. I need a little bit of normalcy, okay? Not a lot, but some." i don't think it's just that rachel wants a boyfriend who can do dinner and a movie with her. i'm not even sure it's entirely about her desire for herself to do normal things. she is trying to climb back off that cliff, it's true. but i think a part of her knows that might not be possible anymore, and she wants tobias to fare better than she has. all the animorphs, pretty much, prefer to take on a burden themselves rather than foist it on one of the others. i think rachel feels, subconsciously, that going off the deep end wouldn't be as bad if she could feel sure that tobias were safely on shore. which is also typical of their relationship, that they seek in each other what they don't find in themselves; tobias, who's always hated himself for being weak, admires rachel's strength, and rachel, who's so harsh, responds to tobias's gentle nature.
that longevity in the wild thing, i can't deal. moving on.
"I'm glad you made it Tobias You're our eyes. Our ears. Our air force If we lost you we'd be nothing Like Joan of Arc without her sword. Patton without his pearl-handled pistols . . ." /Saddam without the twenty-eight palaces, the special Republican Guard, and a jar of anthrax? Stop the flattery, man. You're making me blush./ We both laughed. It felt good to hear Jake say I was indispensable, but with Jake you could never be sure anymore what was sincere. And what was just expedient. heh, the saddam line makes me laugh. and in this and his subsequent observations about jake, i like that tobias is basically okay with the fact that jake has become kind of ruthless when it comes to his own people (until, of course, the very end).
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Date: 2010-03-02 10:34 am (UTC)"You're saying you'd rather be sitting up in your tree, watching owls eat nocturnal rodents, than be with me?" she asked. Her tone was somewhere between challenging and coy. Dangerous in either direction.
they're so tragically fucked up ;_; i actually think their relationship is one of the most consistently written things in the series (unlike rachel's characterization ahem ahem). they always care deeply about each other, tobias is always afraid to give in too far to something he loves, rachel always wants him to be happy but refuses to see that he is, in fact, happier this way because she can't deal with that being true. they both on the one hand want to make the other happy more than almost anything, and on the other hand know on some level they can't give the other what they want.
We'd been through this before. I didn't know how to answer. And I didn't know why she was pushing it.
another example of the above. they're stuck.
Why was Rachel ignoring reality? She knew as well as anyone that I'd be out of the fight if I stayed more than two hours in human form.
this sheds some light, for me, on their whole conflict about whether or not tobias should go human. i think while rachel wouldn't admit this to herself, the fact that he'd be out of the fight is part of the appeal for her of tobias going human. like she says later (in a bit of dialogue i really love):
She paused to consider her next words. She was embarrassed by what she was about to say. Fighting to get past her embarrassment. "But you've got to realize that there's more. I'm not just a warrior," she said, her blue eyes glittering so close to mine. "I'm a girl. I'm trying not to let myself be dragged off the cliff, away from all normalcy, into this insane life we live. I don't like what it does to me, Tobias, and I need to be a girl again. I need a little bit of normalcy, okay? Not a lot, but some."
i don't think it's just that rachel wants a boyfriend who can do dinner and a movie with her. i'm not even sure it's entirely about her desire for herself to do normal things. she is trying to climb back off that cliff, it's true. but i think a part of her knows that might not be possible anymore, and she wants tobias to fare better than she has. all the animorphs, pretty much, prefer to take on a burden themselves rather than foist it on one of the others. i think rachel feels, subconsciously, that going off the deep end wouldn't be as bad if she could feel sure that tobias were safely on shore. which is also typical of their relationship, that they seek in each other what they don't find in themselves; tobias, who's always hated himself for being weak, admires rachel's strength, and rachel, who's so harsh, responds to tobias's gentle nature.
that longevity in the wild thing, i can't deal. moving on.
"I'm glad you made it Tobias You're our eyes. Our ears. Our air force If we lost you we'd be nothing Like Joan of Arc without her sword. Patton without his pearl-handled pistols . . ."
/Saddam without the twenty-eight palaces, the special Republican Guard, and a jar of anthrax? Stop the flattery, man. You're making me blush./ We both laughed. It felt good to hear Jake say I was indispensable, but with Jake you could never be sure anymore what was sincere. And what was just expedient.
heh, the saddam line makes me laugh. and in this and his subsequent observations about jake, i like that tobias is basically okay with the fact that jake has become kind of ruthless when it comes to his own people (until, of course, the very end).